January (dear lord, how can it possibly be the end of January already?!?) Update

More than a month since I’ve blogged? How can that be? Where on earth did January go? How can February be only a day or so away? If you can’t tell, things have been sort of getting away from me lately. In an effort to get back on top of that and figure out what the hell is going on with my life (in so much as anyone ever figures out what is going on with their lives), I am taking some drastic steps.

1. I am quitting my job and I will probably be doing it without the safety net of another job. I have been unhappy for a while and things are not getting better (although after a series of rather pointless meetings, things seem to have reached plateau). There is no reason for me to stay unhappy at a company where I so obviously have no future when I could go be happy or at least have a shot at something bigger than an admin position at another company. I keep almost chickening out and changing my mind, but I keep telling a few key people who I know will give me shit about it if I chicken out. This is the right choice and it is the best decision for me…right?
2. At this point I am not going to stage manage Scenes from an Execution. Zander’s thoughtless remarks concerning his ability to do without me and not wanting to adjust the rehearsal schedule by a half an hour to indulge my need to have a day job that makes it so I can eat has really pissed me off. I’m not going to say that I definitely won’t (because I said that with Mad Forest and look how that turned out), but at this exact moment, I find it highly unlikely.

I guess that is about all when it comes to drastic steps.

In other news, I am stage managing Mad Forest. I didn’t want to and I fought having to do it, but in the end I’m doing it and I’m actually very happy that I am. It is an amazing group of people and they have a wonderful vibe. Julia (the director) actually values my opinion and wants me to be an active member of the team she has created as opposed to sitting in a corner reading a book until someone needs something. It is wonderful and amazing and I am enjoying it a lot. I am just VERY tired. My BF hates it because he’s lost me to another show, but he’s tolerating it amazingly well considering.

On the whole, especially since I made the decision to make those drastic choices (they may not be drastic to you, but they are to me, I’m Miss Responsible, remember?), life has been pretty good. Hopefully it will keep going that way. To close, I want to post an e-mail that my friend Veronica sent me. I hope all these things for all of you:

My Wish for You in 2007 May peace break into your house and may thieves come to steal your debts. May the pockets of your jeans become a magnet for $100 bills. May love stick to your face like Vaseline and may laughter assault your lips! May your clothes smell of success like smoking tires and may happiness slap you across the face. May your tears be that of joy and may your problems forget your home address! In simple words............May 2007 be the best year of your life!!!